tired of hoping for something better?
"Hope is hard to keep when hope keeps taking you on bad dates."
I subscribe to this amazing writer on Substack, @carolinedooner. She’s hilarious + talks about real shit too, so I highly encourage you to go check her out.
(Caroline if you ever see this, I was reading your post about the wealthy German + this line got my attention so much, I decided to write a post about it.)(Love your work!)
In this post, she was talking about her dating on Hinge + made the comment:
Hope is hard to keep when hope keeps taking you on bad dates.
Have truer words never been said. I know what it feels like to hold hope for someone, or just hold hope for something in general, that continually keeps letting you down.
It’s like, why keep trying?
Well, to that I say, because you ARE going to get what you want. You are. Let me ask you this, when was the last time you held out hope for something, + it ended up going so well, even being better than you expected?
Don’t say never, because I know that’s false. You definitely have a memory like that (hopefully more), so take a minute to really think about it, if you have to.
What was it that you wanted? How did it make you feel?
I’m going to assume it made you feel good. Happy. Content. Overjoyed. Loved.
THAT right there, is what’s fueling the hope. Before I say anything else, I do want to say this: if you are only wanting this thing you’re hoping for, so you can feel a certain way, you’re going to have a tough time both receiving + keeping said thing. You have to feel that feeling inside first before looking for it externally. It should be an aid to that feeling, not the source.
Okay, end side note.
Those feel good feelings, is exactly why you shouldn’t give up hope. You KNOW how amazing it’s going to be once you get it. You KNOW how excited you’re going to be once you get it. You KNOW it’s going to be great. It will be everything you dreamed of + more.
Sometimes, it just takes longer than usual. Because, that’s life. You may even have to go through some shit to get what you want, to get to that end goal, whatever that may be.
But that doesn’t mean it’s not going to happen, it just means it’s going to be much more worthy in the end.
Don’t give up.
+ as always…
Much love + healing,
Eb
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It definitely gets tiring, especially when you've been hoping for years. Sometimes I think I need to change what I'm hoping for, seems like it's not meant for me. Do I have high standards?