I used to be someone who rushed everything. I rushed getting ready. I rushed through eating. I rushed through my work. Always wanting to get things done as quickly as possible, to get to the next step.
Why was I so anxious to get to the next step, I have no idea. Something would go wrong when I was rushing, too, it wasn’t like it always ended smoothly. I rushed through getting ready, so now I have to suffer with smelly pits all day because I forgot to put on deodorant. I rushed through eating, so now I’m choking on leftover spaghetti. I rushed through work, so now the results I wanted to happen, didn’t happen.
It’s like I’m rushing through life, trying to get to the next stage, when I’m not even enjoying the stage I’m in now, which I asked for! I asked to be here, + now I’m not even appreciating it.
Between realizing I was lacking gratitude in my present life, + lacking self love, I knew I needed to change something. I wasn’t happy, + if I didn’t take responsibility to change that, I would not be here.
So. I started my healing journey, which I learned early on CANNOT be rushed. Simply because it’s life long. But also because, it’s important to take time with the lessons I’m learning. One thing I’m learning, is to take things slow. I don’t need to rush, nor do I need to leap to taking big actions. A small action is perfect. I wanted to be more at peace in my life + enjoy every single day of it, so I started being the person I wanted to be. But slowly.
It started with making my bed in the morning, every day. Then, I started writing down what I was thankful for every night before bed. I started journaling out my thoughts + feelings when I felt the urge. I started taking more vitamins + herbs. I started eating one new food a day. I started my mornings by waking up + thanking the universe for another day. I watched Tiktoks about healing when I wanted to scroll through. I started saying yes to opportunities. I started accepting compliments when given.
This then had a ripple effect of healing from big traumas + emotions. More + more, I started becoming who I wanted to be. More + more, I went deeper within myself + learned my truth. More + more, I integrated balance, harmony, + peace into my life.
It starts with small changes. Which then leads to big changes.
Take a step.
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Much love + healing,
Eb
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